Moving up – hopefully

I had an interview (on the phone) today. It went well, and I will find out soon if I have the job. Without exhausting everyone with details, it can be called a small beginning, but I hope if I get it will lead to bigger and better things. I think the reason I got this interview is the universe: Three or so days ago, right before I wrote my last post, I came to the conclusion that I didn’t absolutely need a job before the summer and that if I didn’t get one the WHOLE summer, I would live. That if I didn’t get an awesome job right out of college, I would be emotionally alright. And tada, an interview pops up. The universe knew I was balanced and didn’t think I NEEDED this job to live and be happy with myself.

 

floor picture-21st birthday

(The only question I may or may not have screwed up on is the “ideal job” question – I was honest, and I didn’t describe the job I was interviewing for, but I didn’t want to suck up so I feel like I did the right thing)

What a BA in Anthropology Leads to…..

I’m not sure what I want to do in life. I graduated college, I’m substitute teaching, and part of me wants to teach. I love kids, and I do like teaching. It’s lame but I feel like I have a lot to tell kids, not like my own kids, but like lots of kids need to hear it, you know? When I’m in a class more than once we end up talking about stuff that’s not just what they “have” to learn, but what they’re interested in.

But on the other hand, I find myself just plain wanting to help people and make their lives better. It doesn’t matter how many kids I tell that they need college even if they want to be a basketball star (or a singer, or a football player) if they can’t get to college. Or if they can’t get in to college because damn the schools in inner cities are not up to par. Yes, better but not to the best yet. How to improve this? How to improve their lives when really, what I see the most need for is a consistent person to tell them, yes school does matter, and yes you can do this math problem and really this math problem is only the beginning, you need to get through ten more years of school and do your damn best and then maybe just maybe you’ll get into a college to do what you really wanted to do in life.

And then when they graduate, how can I lie to them and tell them that yes, of course you’ll find a job even though I can’t find what I want to do and get a job in it. How to tell the kids I see everyday, hopeful kids, that there is no money and no happiness in helping people. How did we get here? How do I change it?

I’m sure this cliché and I’m sure every student who just graduated with a BA in Anthropology wants to change the world. I guess I want to be satistifed every night and be willing to get up and go to the work in the morning. I think that’s what most people who live in a capitalistic society want though. We’ve “improved” the human experience – how? By making human emotions so difficult to subdue.

This weekend

Hikes, banana flavored baked goods, and mad men colored nails.