Today, I found out I was not accepted in to Teach for America. I’m conflicted about it – my type-A, planning personality is now concerned about what I’m going to do next year. It seems I’m back where I started, unsure of what I’m doing in the summer (just like I was for this summer). I have trouble with the concept of “it will work out” and always have.
But I’ve also read a lot of negative commentary on the TFA – commentary that really resounds with me. Stuff about how the TFA program is set up for only a two year commitment – and should teaching be a career? Something that you come back to every year to show the students you are trying to teach consistency?
What stressed me the most I think was the fact that TFA apparently has contracts with school districts so in some cases, veteran teachers may be out of the job because of a TFAer. In my experience, this has not happened but I could see how it could (but don’t believe everything you read on the internet). I don’t think a first year teacher who has signed up for the experience would ever be a better teacher than even one who has taught a few years.
So here I am, back to no plans, substitute teaching and still contemplating what I’d like to do with my next ten years – my years as I see it to do whatever the f- I want – move, travel, pay off loans (not that I want to do that), and figure it out. 30s are the new 20s, right? Right.
(I’ll keep updating – going to apply for teacher residency programs, teaching abroad in Spain, etc. I do want to teach, somewhere full time, one day. Just not in Connecticut)